Never Run Back to What Broke You
I ran across the words “Never run back to what broke you” a few days ago, and just like that song that keeps playing in your head that you heard on the radio, so to do these words keep resurfacing.
As I contemplate these reoccurring words, I instinctively know their meaning but then my ego jumps in, clouds my thoughts by creating false narratives and justifications as to why these words keep resurfacing. I find myself going down the path of “I’m tired and that’s why I keep thinking of these words” or “they’re just words and have nothing to do with me.” So many times I have returned to something that broke me and instead of walking away, I found myself seeking signs from the universe to justify my return, only to be broken again. What I know for sure right now is that everything happens for a reason and these reoccurring words are a preamble from my higher state of consciousness. How I choose to honor these words is totally up to me. So as I’m washing clothes or driving my daughter to school and these words resurface, I choose listen to the words and I choose to feel the words. What I hear is don’t keep going back to a situation that’s full of empty promises. What I feel is I deserve to be complete and whole, and I can’t be whole and broken at the same time. When you reach this point it’s good to lean heavily on strength and courage. This strength will push you when you’ve become to weak to move, and this courage will help you stay the course without looking back. There comes a time when the sweetest thing you can do is love yourself. When you truly understand this you will never return to what broke you ever again.