Never Run Back to What Broke You

Never Run Back to What Broke You

I ran across the words “Never run back to what broke you” a few days ago, and just like that song that keeps playing in your head that you heard on the radio, so to do these words keep resurfacing.

As I contemplate these reoccurring words, I instinctively know their meaning but then my ego jumps in, clouds my thoughts by creating false narratives and justifications as to why these words keep resurfacing.  I find myself going down the path of “I’m tired and that’s why I keep thinking of these words” or “they’re just words and have nothing to do with me.”  So many times I have returned to something that broke me and instead of walking away, I found myself seeking signs from the universe to justify my return, only to be broken again.  What I know for sure right now is that everything happens for a reason and these reoccurring words are a preamble from my higher state of consciousness.  How I choose to honor these words is totally up to me.  So as I’m washing clothes or driving my daughter to school and these words resurface, I choose listen to the words and I choose to feel the words. What I hear is don’t keep going back to a situation that’s full of empty promises.  What I feel is I deserve to be complete and whole, and I can’t be whole and broken at the same time.  When you reach this point it’s good to lean heavily on strength and courage.  This strength will push you when you’ve become to weak to move, and this courage will help you stay the course without looking back.  There comes a time when the sweetest thing you can do is love yourself.  When you truly understand this you will never return to what broke you ever again.

It takes Courage to “Walk by Faith and not by Sight”

This earth journey presents so many opportunities, however many of us see these opportunities as challenges and obstacles.  We tend to focus on what it will take to make things happen, instead of focusing on the “THING” itself. 

The reason we focus on the steps and not the “THING” is due to conditional thinking.  We’ve been conditioned to think that anything worth having takes planning and sacrifice.  We get so caught up in planning and sacrificing that we lose sight of the prize. 

For example, take someone who is working two jobs and eating bologna sandwiches just to buy or do something special.  Eventually they become exhausted and under-nourished which results in them either seeking something less desirable but within their reach, or giving-up altogether.

When you decide to walk by Faith, irregardless of what you see in front of you, courage becomes second nature.

Give Me The Courage To Create The Energy I Need To Thrive

Today as I walked on the treadmill a vision as clear as day popped into my head. I saw myself floating on an inner tube in the ocean. The water was choppy and dark and it took all the energy and courage I had just to stay afloat. I didn’t see any way out but at the same time I would not give-in to my demise. Somewhere deep inside I held onto hope, the hope that I would survive this ordeal. At some point I saw a well lit boat in the distance. I prayed for strength to move towards the boat and it seemed like eternity before I reached the boat. Once there I saw a rope being tossed down to me and all of a sudden I felt exhausted. I told myself that I had used up all my energy just to get there, but I knew that I was absolutely afraid of what was on the boat’s deck, the unknown. You see I was familiar with my struggle just to survive in the ocean, but now I’m presented with something new and unfamiliar. I looked back at the ocean which was dark, deep and vast and my heart shuttered. I then looked up at the boat and my curiosity grew. I reached within and mustered up courage to energize my body to climb the rope and once I reached the deck I knew instantly I was where I was supposed to be.